Fast forward

Okay..I know I have so much to catch up on here on our blog...but pardon me while I fast forward to our HUGE life change coming up soon!  We. are. moving. to. Kansas.   There. I said it.  It has been announced to family, friends, the facebook world, etc., but I thought I should also put a little post about it on the blog.  Maybe for me to have to look back on and see what I was thinking/feeling about all of this.  Because, I know, in a year or so, I will look back and think, "What was I worried about?" But in the moment, right now, I'm freaking out.  Seriously.  Not outwardly, and not constantly.  But that panicky feeling is definitely there.  My biggest worry/fear is finding a place to live.  I know, that shouldn't be my focus, but for some reason, it is!  Along with that, how in the world will we sell our house?  I babysit 5-8 kids a day here at our house.  Seriously, how can we show a house with so many kids in and out each day?  I don't know.  I am hoping our dear Lord has a plan for us, for our housing, and for my irrational fears.  I know He does.....but I sure wish He would just enlighten me a little.  :) On a brighter note, we are here in OK through the school year.  That is a lifesaver to me (and the people I babysit for!).  At least I don't feel rushed.  And, let me also say, I am SO happy Josh has a job to look forward to.  What a relief for him...I know it's been a stressful 2 1/2 years for him too....I hate to dwell on my craziness.  We will be blessed by living in Kansas..I just know it.